Today sucked. Officially sucks. Work has been fucking exhausting, as in like most of days after i end work i still have to attend dance lessons. thereafter, i have to bathe before i sleep.

AND I AM SERIOUSLY REALLY REALLY FUCKING TIRED.

As usual, attended dance lessons. And again, as usual, during lessons the instructor don't even bother to guide me(90% of the time), his attention his focused on his students that have been with him since they were young. ITS OBVIOUS, HELLO?

I'm honestly trying my best to catch up. Seriously, practice makes perfect right? My first time doing the steps i get scolded. wth srsly. ok nvm.

As a teacher, no matter how long your students have been with you, no matter how good/bad they are, you shouldn't be biased what. You should help them to realise their full potential without discrimination. Oh ok, you are only expecting me to pass, this is ridiculous ok.

I NEVER EVER WANTED A PASS ALL MY LIFE. yeah, i kinda have high expectations for myself, (thats why i get stressed EASILY)

and you know the reason as to why im taking grade 6 foundation, because a 10year old girl cannot participate in the grade 6 exams cos' she's underaged. He admitted what. some girl asked " why she(which is me) taking grade6 foundation exam? he replied " to pei megan mah"

Yeah right. DOWNRIGHT SELFFISH and UNETHICAL. I should only take exam if I'm qualified, not to waste my fucking $130 to just get a pass and accompany that person so she can get a distinction.

Oh yeah, i was already in a bad mood when i got back home. And mum continued nagging...i mean like seriously i told you i dont fucking feel like talking and i need to clear my thoughts out by myself. She started ranting about how petty i got cos she nagged. I told her it wasn't the case, and she prompted me to tell her in a agitated way

But you see, you already reprimanded me before even understanding what the hell is wrong with me. So whats the fucking point of telling you? And when the same thing happened previously, its not like you gave a fuck or could do anything about it. You thought it was funny.

You think you're the only who's stressed? Right, though i dont have to feed mouths, I do fucking have to pave my path for uni. if i were smart and diligent, i wouldnt have to do so. (i tried my best) if i were rich, i could study overseas.

The reason why i took up a second ballet class elsewhere? Mainly because i wanted to improve asap and get the fucking certificate since i dont have a cca in school. Why did i quit? Because you couldnt pay for it? Why did i take up a second cours anyway? To aid my admission into uni.

Im filled with admiration when i see people who are multi-talented. honestly. But i know i cant afford it. I feel so lousy when i see them.

YEAH SO U THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE STRESSED ABOUT MONEY RIGHT? c'mon lah, this world is realistic, if you have money, you'll definitely get your degree and whatsoever. No money? work fucking hard till you die else forget about it.