I think I've really woken up!! To study! I desperately need to ace everything to get into a local uni. Cos I don't think my parents cant save enough for me to study abroad. (Ikr, going overseas is damn fun, too bad) neither do I want to go SIM, last choice.

I am really starting to panic before school even starts, before I have a damn idea about what marketing is. All I know is, UNI UNI UNI.

I'm even getting all restless about ballet, grade 6 exams, having to recap grade 1-3 syllabus after MIA-ing for 4years, trying to catch up with the rest cos I ain't learn grade 4/5, competing with the rest for a place to go to australia/UK for training, performance during january 2012, worrying about my flexibility cos I ain't young anymore, strengthless muscles, wondering how to get my grade 4/5 cert.

Contemplating about what cca to join...I'm not even talented in the first place, cos basically I don't do sports, can't act can't sing, just got back into dance recently. Jeez. Maybe martial arts, need to break my "fear of getting injured" barrier. Maybe dance, but I think I can't do hiphop. Maybe ballroom, talk about flexibility again. Maybe cheerleading, flexibility, yet again. Drama, can't act!

Still on therapy for backbone...gonna take at least another 6-12mths.

Meh... I'm such a worrywart. Nat keeps talking about finding a suave + $ boyfriend. I've got so much to accomplish, got big dreams to fulfill, so this is not applicable to me. I really really can't screw up, my last chance. I've been me, myself and I for est. 98% of my life, id say I'm doing fine. Hahahaha, I just need a dose of fashion every now and then.

Talking about that, I kind of wish I can have sponsored clothes. And since fame = sponsored stuffs, I doubt it'll come true.