I must have lost my mind, utterly during these 2months working.

Really really hate this point of my life right now, when I gave up my youth, friends, and family to my material needs.

I probably have no friends have, because I kind of abandoned them, plus they have their lives to lead.(JC) imagine my delirium when I saw cheryl after a long month.

I'm feeling like a total bitch now. Would someone take me out please. At least I have tricia for now, as promised. To sing to party.

Can you even believe that my brother has much more of a life them me? Enjoying themselves over at our place. Makes me damn jealous.

My only source of entertainment? Fashion blogs. Yum. (Fml)

The only friends(not close) I have and in contact with, now, are my colleagues who are about the same age as me. One of them is my malay colleague at nex. For now, at kovan, I've a guy friend. (Platonic r/s only)

Your superiors, a friend, yes. But you can't blabber whatever you want, cos they are still your superior.

Anyhow, I need to get a life. Probably working part time during march.

Valentine's drawing closer, I've no date, prolly tricia...pathetic much. But I'm in no hurry to find my valentine. Haha! Speaking of that, it reminds me of my company dinner, when red wine was served. Seeing everyone drink to their hearts content. Whereas I was hesitating...1) stay healthy with a functioning liver or drink and die 2) I've no consort(boyfriend/friend), what if I get wasted and get raped on my way home? 3) I lose myself to the alcohol and shame myself.

So I took only a sip or two.

Yeah, I know I'm paranoid. (Probably kind of PMS too)