I suck to the max. Not low self esteem okay. Just that I really am dumb to the max. I swear I haven't seen anyone as stupid as me. And I have butter fingers.

Time to buy a new emaths tys. A new pillow as well.

This afternn I told my dad to buy me coffee to keep me awake. My dad reminded me not to spill it. Then just half an hour ago... when I was abt to sleep... I carried my pillow and babies(dolphins hehe) and tys with the coffee. And it muthafucking spilled. Nbcb!@#$%&*()" all over the floor and walls.

I cannot contain my anger because it was not the first time I did something stupid like this. Countless times. I had to carry the dining table and chair to clean the mess. But the first thing I did was to save my babies. Luckily the stain came off easily. Same goes for the pillow covers. Pillow kena two dots...nvm its already quite dirty I'll change it then. No pillow tonight. My emaths tys looks too disgusting to be reused sadly. Like my amaths textbk (not so bad)
I wasted an hour of my precious sleeping time. I swear I am so fucking dead exhausted.

Next year one of my bday wish would be to get rid of this stupidity. Hate it man.

Best is I got emaths mock exam tmr and I haven't read thru tys and this thing happened.

But I don't care. As long as my babies are okay I'm good. I sound a little crazy talking bout my but I have a good reason for that.