One way street

2012-01-19T20:35:00.004+08:00

School's feeling more and more like a battlefield...to me. i guess its inevitable, but I thought we're comrades? Now what...wait, you don't trust me?

I thought we're different. Wouldn't have mattered if it were someone else. I would have not have done what you did if i were in your place.

Don't have to stutter and come up with excuses. You could have told me straight, i'd respect that.

As much as i like things to be better than they already are, it's just getting worse. There's always this wall people put up around them so i have to do the same, admittedly. Nobody wants to get hurt.

Sometimes, i swear i would love to be alone. For there's no vying for the coveted title or battles that would leave everyone scarred.

2012-01-08T01:21:00.001+08:00

The dress....stunning.

2012-01-05T03:57:00.004+08:00

I was just wondering if i should take up piano lessons. Not anytime too soon i guess since i'm not financially stable. It'll just be a burden to my parents.

It's like i think i wanna learn. Yeah, i like learning new stuff.

Remember when i was 13, we (yy & me) used to sit at the piano near the staircase during recess and even after school to play.

Then just 2 weeks ago, i went to my aunt's house, happened to play the piano and got my lil' cousin to teach me 2 songs. Kind of cool. My aunt asked me if i wanted learn no? I said no, just for fun. But now i kind of want to?

Know the chinese phrase 喜新厌旧? Sort of describes me. But to put it nicely, i just wanna try out new things and see how it goes!

been so caught up with my projects lately, hate it. Gotta blame myself for procrastinating. Spent the holidays watching drama series, one after another. can't stop. 6 series...i estimate 65 episodes in total?

Last semester i told myself, im gonna work harder this time, gonna spend my holidays studying. IT ALWAYS DOESNT HAPPEN. have been like this for my entire life. I didn't even bother to do my assignments, let alone study i hate myself for this srsly.

i'm pretty much sure alot of people out there have the same problem as me.

I AM A MESS. SERIOUSLY.

2011-12-30T19:48:00.002+08:00

I'm a wreck man i swear. My emotions are screwed.

Most of the time when i cry i'm either frustrated or angry...hardly sad. And i can't control them as much as i wish to. wtf.

2011-12-17T23:29:00.002+08:00

Damn, i feel so demoralised?

You know, when you're not good anything.

Ok I'm not boasting or what(it's the PAST, not PRESENT). I remember how I used to be better academically. But I lost it since I was 15...wait, maybe 12. And then you see those people (who used to do worse than you)do better currently. So demoralising. what is this?! Go to a junior college, and everything else.

*Le sighs*

Well, I'm happy though I went to polytechnic. Nope, i don't regret it. Maybe I could've done better?

I just hope this path is the right one for me.

There's so many things I wanna learn. Piano, Muaythai, guitar, jazz just to name a few. (Makes me feel smarter) ahahaha. in the future...

Will probably act in a film that a friend roped me in. All along, I've never actually acted(played a major role) in my school's drama. Would be a good experience and venture.I'll try my best if I do it.

Ballet performance in less than a month. Barely a month's practice. Show some mercy please, i'm still an amateur.Extra practices everyday for a week. Gotta be more devoted else I will lag behind those exceptionally good ones.

Lastly, my studies. I need to pull my socks up. Screwed up alot of tests. Two words: Utter disappointment.

2011-12-11T00:20:00.009+08:00

Is it worth it...to trade for a lifetime of happiness? yeah i probably will be though i'm scared as heck. so that's that.

Im pain-tolerant. lolol

beautician "pain or not? pain tell me"

me "nope not at all"

X5times?

It hurts, but i can really tolerate it for the sake of having a blackhead free nose. *A little tears start welling*

Anywayyyyyy, this is random but i can't help to think that i'm weird. 60% of the products in the toilet are mine. And i'm not a staunch supporter of any brand i guess. I use 5 shampoos of different brands, 4 hair masks, and tons of leave on crap(which i cannot be bothered to use nowadays) concurrently.

Oh just bought Goldwell treatment. So far so good. Affordable and i guess its comparable to Kerastase which is much more expensive? I'm thinking of trying out different brands before i decide which one i want to stick to.

I haven't done my Xmas/CNY shopping yet. The crowds and SCHOOL. Speaking of school, im totally worn out. Madness. All the more stressful you are when you have to maintain your grades and since my parents spend so much on me.....i can't let them down.

On a happier note, I passed my Ballet G6 foundation. whooohoo. Let's hope for a commended for grade6 during March2012. Need to hone my skills asap so that I can get more certs.

This post is random and totally crap........I think i should just lock the blog since no one is reading except kobemoo. Its so boooorrriinnng.

2011-12-06T11:00:00.002+08:00

first pair of branded shoes i wanna get: Christian Louboutin pumps. classic.

2011-11-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'm actually afraid of failures. just saying.

2011-11-21T22:51:00.003+08:00

Just received the best news ever. That there was no misdiagnosis and Iwas supposed to do braces 5 fucking years ago(ok not sure if thats good news). Maybe my mum was aware but it slipped her mind/couldn't be bothered. Well, i think it's kind of her fault, BUT she is my mum still.

At least im relieved that i know the truth. And my psea is approved. Yeap ready to consult for braces.

So fucking excited. It really sucks when you're all excited and then someone had to be a spoiler and tell you, there's a possibility that you can't fix your teeth/jaw. ok 2 close ppl told me that. SERIOUSLY. don't come telling me things when you have no idea what the problem is. you're not a dentist, you dont know whats with my teeth, you obviously can't do your research w/o knowing whats wrong.

Maybe you meant well, but seriously?

I wouldn't be so confident if not for the fact that i did my research. I know, i know right, the higher your expectation, the higher your disappointment.

I have yet to consult a orthodontist(the one at compass point doesnt count, can just !@@#$@%^%$&). If the first orthodontist im gonna consult tells me that it can't helped, i'll know, i'll expect less. (Not that i'll give up)

then she's like you sure you wanna do it? Please lah, i've been talking about this years ago. Isn't it obvious? haven't i considered enough?and she's like half hearted about the whole thing. what if it doesn't work? well, at least i tried. i don't expect 100%, just better. At whatever the cost.

Why so discouraging? really freaks me out.

Lol, and i wonder why some people do braces to make their jaws smaller. really....? is it necessary?

2011-11-20T22:24:00.002+08:00

Well, I've been a really last minute person lately. And that almost screwed my marketing project up.

I'm supposed to be doing my work. Yes I haven't done a single tutorial over the weekends. The weather is killing me, literally - Sleeping, sleeping and sleeping and watching funshion.

Damn, I'm such a stay-at-home person. 8D

Took my dance exam just a few days back. No matter what the outcome may be, I'm pretty pleased that I've done good...enough.

Really hate that I have no shopping funds. Rotating clothes to wear and all over again. It's boring. it sucks even more when you go online window shopping/read fashionblogs.

Still trying to save up for braces. And apparently, i don't think i'll get enough funds till next year, which beats my purpose of saving up.

At my lowest point, where money is concerned.

2011-11-04T23:38:00.003+08:00

Why only one webstore sell and happens so they dont ship internationally?

Unique and well within my budget.

p/s Hope for a closure soon, with a satisfactory ending

Anyway, dont probe or assume k. I don't think I should disclose much. Sensitive matter

2011-11-03T23:19:00.005+08:00

I just did potentially the most stupid/embarassing thing in my life....either that or the greatest.

But welllll.......chances that this pursuit to find out whatever happened years ago are low. And even if my conjecture is right, how the fuck am i gonna do a one man show with no funding.

No ill intentions, I really just want to find out the truth. I just hope that there is no withholding of the truth. At least I deserved the truth. Plus, i believe irresponsibility comes with a "price tag".

What a risk. God bless me. And of cos, may the truth prevail.

Have been visiting this space to rant alot ......recently. The stress sometimes kills me, good that i have my personal space here. It's not that i have too much homework.

I should be hitting the sacks already.....after finishing my econs.

2011-11-02T21:34:00.006+08:00

yayyyy. if everything goes well, i'm able to do braces. must remember to book appointment with the dentist already. Hosehbo! (hahahaha ok my favourite catchphrase now.)

I know people tell me that i don't really need braces, i agree to a certain extent. true, my teeth is relatively straight. As y'all know, it's better to do braces as early as possible cos your teeth is still growing. I don't wanna have any regrets in the future, like " if i had done this earlier, then it could have been less complicated" etc

And my dad is sponsoring me too. I'd rather pay myself if i have the ability to. Say if i get my scholarship and work, i'll definitely be able to raise at least 80%.

Sidestracking, this girl was trending on twitter when i woke up in the morning. It piqued my curiousity and yeahhhh, i found out what was going on. Apparently she slapped her mum twice and she is not remorseful. Revelling in the new attention she's getting.

Damn, i don't think she deserves forgiveness until she apologises and repents (privately or publicly idgaf, so long as she apologises to her mum). I admit that I think my mum is naggy at times and sometimes we bicker, but getting physical AND BEING PROUD OF THAT is just way atrocious.

And then she's on the newspaper too. Something about cheating in psle and bragging about it...and then stealing her mum's money to buy LV wallet. seriously?!

I don't think she's fully cognizant of how dire the consequences are for posting something like this online. I'd say her future employers are most probably gonna take this matter into account even though it happened the past.

Saw her friends commenting on her fb wall. Most of their facebook names are like xiiao___ or ____xzxz or ____tiongxim. Ok i don't really remember but it goes sth like that. Well, im just saying and you get it right?

Then i think again, who are we to judge? But i definitely don''t whack/physically abuse my parents...-.-

2011-10-31T00:16:00.003+08:00

Going to USS was a last minute thing and everything was paid for. Anddddd, it's my first time there. heh.

The whole experience is like a whirlwind thing. Can't really remember much about it. Took majority of the rides. I wish I had rode the Battlestar Galactica cyclone/human / Revenge of mummy again. Well, I can't when no one wants to ride it with me and i can't have a whole bunch of people waiting for me!

I rode the Revenge of the mummy alone. (like a brave only hahahaha) Not shiok one. Cos you're in the dark and you cant see the height. All i can feel is myself jerking and then in a second, it's over. I don't get why reverse is scary cos i heard everyone else screaming when the roller coaster is reversing!

Subsequently, i rode the Cyclone ALONE yet again... The plunge/drop is the only thing im afraid of and it's shiokness. The 360degrees turn is nothing compared to the plunge because you're already so dizzy, you can't even tell if you are upright or upside down. Throughout the ride I was probably showing my signature stressed face/poker face. (Not my thing to scream.)

Rode the Human after cyclone. It's probably only a quarter of cyclone's shiokness.

Everything was over in a jiffy so i can't remember anything too. hahaha. Wished my brother had went along with me. Would have been more fun when you have a daredevil with you. Could have possibly hogged the first rows and rode multiple times.

Well, if i were to go back to USS again, I will hog the first row for sure. HAHAHA. fyeah. If it's safe and I won't die, no matter how scary it is....I'm IN.

I have a new goal.....to ride many many different rollercoasters(or anything that involves height) Of course must be safe, i don't wanna die.

Still feeling dizzy.......goodnight.

2011-10-19T22:41:00.003+08:00

Too lazy to continue updating the vietnam trip, especially when school's in. Maybe in the near future?

Third day since a new semester commenced, and the tutors/lecturers are eccentric and seem like they aren't some people you would wanna mess around with, especially when they wield influence on your grades.

Sigh, I presume gonna be a tough semester ahead. Let's pray that I will do equally or even better this semester. Especially when I know I am not what you'd call diligent. I do last minute work most of the time. My mind wanders off during most of the lessons. I am late most of the time. Hopefully I get lucky again this time of round! haha

2011-10-13T19:36:00.015+08:00

Since I have nothing better to do, I shall blog about my virgin Vietnam trip with Kobemoo and Blingbling Hoang.

Don't have much pictures to document the whole trip, so I don't actually have the mood to blog. But oh well...some day I'm gonna look back and reminisce. At least I have this post to remind me of these days. Honestly, I had a great time immersing in their lifestyles and cultures.

Departed for Ho Chi Minh city via Tiger Airways. The seats in the plane were awkwardly positioned (so much for the cheaper price). Upon arrival at the Tan Son Nhat international airport, we were greeted by Theresa and her mum. We put up at her place throughout our whole trip.

We kickstarted our trip by heading to the streets, a departmental store(mall), and night market on the first day. Rows and rows of shophouses(?) along every street and every corner. The city was bustling with its people donned in facial masks to prevent inhalation of the exhaust from the engines of the motorbikes. Yeap, motorbikes filled the roads which can be likened to the veins in our bodies. Visited a few stores there and then which sold "branded" clothes that originated from their factories.

Most of the time, our mode of transport was the taxi. The fares were way cheaper than in Singapore, the reason being the currency. Same goes to the prices of most items there.

Next, we went to the departmental store(mall). The visit to the mall was pretty much uncalled for as the prices of the items there was exhorbitant or similar to Singapore. Thereafter, we went to Trung Nyugen Coffee where I had the most delicious tuna salad i ever tasted.

The market had linear arrays of haphazardly erected stalls with a bevy of boisterous people pushing their way around the market. Theresa helped us to bargain as the prices for the items are not fixed. Most of the time, we got what we bargained for, if its reasonable. We indulged in street hawker food most of the time. I have a irrational fear of unhygienic food because i had a serious diarrhoea previously. But i told myself, if i were to miss out all these delicacies, it beats the whole purpose of coming. Plus, all the locals didnt fall ill from consuming them on a daily basis, did they?

Bought this colourful and flavourful rice with coconut.

Retreated for the night at Theresa's place.

P/S: On a sidenote, I remember a few of the more memorable stuff like the buses' honks which can seriously scare the shit out of you. Theresa said the all the buses are prone to accidents and have at least taken lives at least once. The ambulances showing up on the roads on a regular basis and drivers driving on the pavements without legal actions taken very much prove that errant drivers are commonplace.

It is a stark contrast to the mundane Singapore. It is what makes Vietnam stand apart from Singapore and unique. Nevertheless, I like it cos' it's not everyday that we scurry and scream to avoid the busy traffic, especially the buses.

2011-10-03T20:36:00.002+08:00

HAHA. Was supposed to work today, but I had a bomb detonating in my head, so I pretty much slept during the entire morning. I even took forty winks in the afternoon.

To my utmost surprise, I'm pretty much getting used to the working lifestyle instead of lazing around. My metabolism rate hasn't been very kind to me lately, to my displeasure. So I've been trying to abstain from eating too much, but to no avail. So the last resort....exercising.

I swear it's really bad. I kind of hate it when people tell me that I'm skinny and all, but I really am not. (I know its a compliment, but...seriously i just wanna be honest about it.) The cloth around my tummy probably did a good job deceiving people. :/

So I only got to know the existence of a park in the vicinity(near my place) recently, when it was already there a year back. What a dork. Been jogging there for the past 2 days during dusk. Since I got to work till 7pm, I might actually try to do so during dawns.

Well, I have to admit that all this exercising made me look rather healthier? Y'all know who's my motivation? Aly Michalka from Hellcats. You'll get what I mean when you see their bods.

Yay. Can't wait for Vietnam trip in 5days. Come to think of it, I think I'm going there for a makeover or smth. Nails, Hair, Teeth, Facial, etc. Seriously?!

Been really thrifty too. Nah, I have smth in mind, yeap so I'm saving up.

2011-09-20T22:23:00.002+08:00

I'd say I have not been this exhilarated for a long time pertaining to results. I only ever remember topping english tests a few times and then. But there was never a time i did this well for major exams.

Could tell my parents were genuinely exuberant and proud of me! Yes, this, money cant buy.

Stifled screams and leaps when I realised I did well. I'd thought I gotten a C+ for one of the modules when I read the text the school sent, turns out its GSM. Expected.....you see, my attendance is not exactly that fantastic.

All the more unbelievable, when i spent my weekends and holidays on funshion, when all i did was to do some last minute studying. I hardly paid any attention to lessons. I even fell asleep studying halfway, and was late for a paper.

I had expected something between 3-3.5 honestly. I told that to my mum, my friends, my colleagues. Especially my mum, i told her if i ever ever gotten a 3.5, i would be more than happy.

I hope I can keep this up, for my parents, myself, for my relatives(in your face, I'll be the first official descendant to get into public university. *i hope*), for everyone(?)

Cannot get too complacent. Besides, with this score which is deemed as pathetic by public universities, apparently, cannot secure me a place in public universities.

Well, those who did badly, work for it. Those who did well, keep it up. <3

Don't life surprise you, sometimes?

2011-09-18T00:00:00.002+08:00

It's been a week!

Yeah, i'm adapting well though i make a few blunders there and then. I would say I'm pretty good. "Blunders" means being late actually. Yes, i dread going to work every morning but by noon time, i would have gotten over the "lack of motivation" period, and start being serious.

Mum's been especially nice after what happened last saturday haha. So yeap, basically everything's rather okay.

There's this thing though. Maybe its just me being over sensitive. Rather skeptical about it. Because its odd, its abnormal. Abnormally nice, cos' everyone don't feel the same, you get what i mean.

So i went to a friend's housewarming party today. Hmm? Genuinely happy to see them? Not exactly. Yeah, i do love them. But the feeling's not right. Like those were the days, not today, whereby there's concrete between us.

The way i talk to my poly friends, its just different. We're like crude, straightforward, sarcastic and stuff. Just feel that i can't speak my mind. But don't get me wrong, i still love them.

Oh i really am flattered by my colleagues regarding my style. Really appreciate that because i love dressing up. It lightens up my mood. But i still feel that im not that fantastic as they make me out to be. There's a lot more to learn.

Argh, and i was speaking to a few of my colleagues from nyp as well. Their GPAs like really fantastic and something i would have totally wanted, but nawww they couldn't enter their desired course despite getting marvellous results.

And it's like as the days pass by, the more i am sure that i wanna be a journalist??? It'll be tough to get there.

2011-09-10T21:49:00.007+08:00

Today sucked. Officially sucks. Work has been fucking exhausting, as in like most of days after i end work i still have to attend dance lessons. thereafter, i have to bathe before i sleep.

AND I AM SERIOUSLY REALLY REALLY FUCKING TIRED.

As usual, attended dance lessons. And again, as usual, during lessons the instructor don't even bother to guide me(90% of the time), his attention his focused on his students that have been with him since they were young. ITS OBVIOUS, HELLO?

I'm honestly trying my best to catch up. Seriously, practice makes perfect right? My first time doing the steps i get scolded. wth srsly. ok nvm.

As a teacher, no matter how long your students have been with you, no matter how good/bad they are, you shouldn't be biased what. You should help them to realise their full potential without discrimination. Oh ok, you are only expecting me to pass, this is ridiculous ok.

I NEVER EVER WANTED A PASS ALL MY LIFE. yeah, i kinda have high expectations for myself, (thats why i get stressed EASILY)

and you know the reason as to why im taking grade 6 foundation, because a 10year old girl cannot participate in the grade 6 exams cos' she's underaged. He admitted what. some girl asked " why she(which is me) taking grade6 foundation exam? he replied " to pei megan mah"

Yeah right. DOWNRIGHT SELFFISH and UNETHICAL. I should only take exam if I'm qualified, not to waste my fucking $130 to just get a pass and accompany that person so she can get a distinction.

Oh yeah, i was already in a bad mood when i got back home. And mum continued nagging...i mean like seriously i told you i dont fucking feel like talking and i need to clear my thoughts out by myself. She started ranting about how petty i got cos she nagged. I told her it wasn't the case, and she prompted me to tell her in a agitated way

But you see, you already reprimanded me before even understanding what the hell is wrong with me. So whats the fucking point of telling you? And when the same thing happened previously, its not like you gave a fuck or could do anything about it. You thought it was funny.

You think you're the only who's stressed? Right, though i dont have to feed mouths, I do fucking have to pave my path for uni. if i were smart and diligent, i wouldnt have to do so. (i tried my best) if i were rich, i could study overseas.

The reason why i took up a second ballet class elsewhere? Mainly because i wanted to improve asap and get the fucking certificate since i dont have a cca in school. Why did i quit? Because you couldnt pay for it? Why did i take up a second cours anyway? To aid my admission into uni.

Im filled with admiration when i see people who are multi-talented. honestly. But i know i cant afford it. I feel so lousy when i see them.

YEAH SO U THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE STRESSED ABOUT MONEY RIGHT? c'mon lah, this world is realistic, if you have money, you'll definitely get your degree and whatsoever. No money? work fucking hard till you die else forget about it.

yes, i am fucking lazy. Sometimes, when im soooooo damn tired i leave my clothes lying on the floor because i really really cant wait to go to bed otherwise im late for work. BUT THEN AGAIN, i never said that i wont clear it up. that'll have to wait till im free what.

I cook my own fucking pasta which cost less than a dollar in the morning before work so that i can save money, when i couldve easily just went to pastamania and get the same thing for 6.90.

OH WOW, so im a bad daughter.

AND SERIOUSLY, WHOEVER FUCKING SAYS IM RICH FROM TODAY ONWARDS, FUCK YOU. I WAS NEVER RICH.

2011-09-07T20:33:00.004+08:00

Meanwhile waiting for the train, i'd thought that maybe I could share my current job experience...

Ok, so here goes.

Haha, as I've mentioned on twitter that my current job is damn relaxing. Yes, no doubt. It's an office job. However, I would say that its sort of a informal office job. Why? I was asked to dressed formally on the first four days of the week, and on fridays, I can wear whatever I want. Despite the dress code, my colleagues weren't dressed exactly what you would call formal. I mean that's what I saw on the first day. I believe they are rather "loose" with the dress code so there on and after, I wear my slippers to work and bring my heels just in case.

What do I do?
From what I know or I think is, you can call it telemarketing. Apparently, this particular company I'm working for liaise with singtel, and its employees call customers on behalf of singtel. And, the customers details are given to us in the system. So basically we get customers to recontract and singtel will do the rest.

But I'm currently still under training, will probably handle customers on my own tomorrow. So far I've handled 3 customers for a hands on session. I kind of screwed up.You can say its a "do a your own pace" job, but then you have a target to reach. You can take breaks in between too. Maybe the worst case would be that the customer curse and swear at you on the phone. Hahaha.

Oh ya, initially I was very apprehensive about offering promos to customers cos its like personally, I feel that "singtel forever cheat my money say no need pay then later when the bills come you die of shock." But, I am pretty sure that this one is genuine one from what I understand. But what I learnt is next time if anyone calls you, pls clarify the t&c before accepting.

By far, its the most relaxing job I've ever gotten. Pay wise, i'd say its reasonable. Colleagues and environment, I'm still familiarising. Yup, so overall its quite okay. Its a great experience as well, its marketing! I'll be talking a lot, so hey its a good time to improve my speech. Hahaha. So...I've learnt something. Now I know that singtel doesn't always take calls directly. They sometimes let their representatives do it. like companies.

So that's all. I was bored.

2011-08-30T21:06:00.003+08:00

If only dreams turned into reality and not nightmares.

I'm actually trying to stop getting so obsessed with fashion and focus on my study instead. But a little won't hurt.

I need a job. I need money. D E S P E R A T E L Y .

I need to enrich myself or whatever. I need to maximise my chances.

2011-08-25T00:31:00.002+08:00

Am having exams this week. So far, its alright.

But then again, I'm still kind of worried. I know I'm doing fine, but it's not up to my expectations. Remember what i told my parents after O's results, i'm not sure if it is a promise, but i feel obligated to do well for them.

Just when you thought poly life's gonna get any easier than secondary school(you're so wrong), it gets tougher. Competition's really stiff. Everyone wants to do well, wants to go into a prestigious university. I mean seriously, who doesn't? This is pretty much what you call: "life".

No idea why i'm blogging, maybe i just need to release some stress. I keep hoping, and praying that I'll get A for both stats and AFA exams. I really need both As. But right now, I've a gut that it'll be around a B or so.

I don't get myself either, what's done has been done, but i keep brooding over the results.

God, give me 2 A s at least!!!

Sincerely,

2011-08-04T21:55:00.003+08:00

my fave blogger with the exact same boots i own!!! After looking at this picture, i think i know what to wear this saturday.

Anyway, yup, im abandoning this place. I probably did already.

2011-07-10T13:14:00.005+08:00

nice? Its from H&M but apparently, they dont sell it anymore+ idk when this was out!!!!!! the whole outfit makes me wanna reconsider buying dr martens. i love boots. hahaahha but nahhhh...i dont think i'll buy.

Anywayzzzzzzzzz, decided to buy a bralette/bandeau from h&m cos its so cheap. like 6.25 only.

2011-07-02T23:17:00.004+08:00

I swear life sucks now. Results really cannot make it. what happened? why am i watching shows 24/7?

Why so poor?

k. i need discipline.

k. gonna plan schedule now.

my plan for dance is..................

shall skip this year's CSTD grade 6 exam first. no technique no stamina. Taking RAD grade 5 exam next April. Taking CSTD grade 4 exam next November.

And this is like tentative cos i need to audition for RAD g5 syllabus. wtf.

Then blah blah blah i'll decide in the future. Heard that RAD is better though.

I actually do wanna get the certs quickly. Thats cos i feel untalented. HAHA. hopefully after completing ballet syllabus i can learn something else too. EH i not untalented ok.

And i like jazz so cool right, can use pop music. i see myself learning that after ballet as foundation. Whoooohooo.

2011-06-23T00:04:00.005+08:00

What exactly have i spent most of my time on during holidays....HMMMM....

Oh, seeing Chace Crawford, Ian Somerhalder, Paul Wesley, Ed Westwick, Penn Badgley, jake gyllanhaal, Matthew Morrison, Cory Monteith etcetra etcetra. Can't actually remember...Jealous or notttt?????? No joke ok, a few of the hottest men alive. I actually like Ian Somerhalder alot these days, followed by chace crawford.

But why, do they they like to grow a moustache/facial hair...makes them look weird when they are so good looking...

HAHAHAHHA. I am crazy.

In other words, I have no life. :( MEH.

2011-06-21T02:24:00.004+08:00

I can't believe I actually did not shop during the holidays. OMG WHUT? unbelievable isn't it?

Partially cos im broke, and cbcbcbcb im so burdened by projects.

Its weird how sometimes i get so paranoid and uptight over projects, the next day you see me lazing around.

But SERIOUSLY, I really, really, really hate leaving things done halfway. So i'd rather finish them asap and relax. I hate seeing so many projects unchecked. And that is why i hate group projects. Y'know, waiting for others to finish before you are considered done with the project. Annoying max. Plus, sometimes you cant really come to consensus with others.

And it makes me feel scared. Like what if i can't finish, and the list goes on... makes my mind go berserk.

The most annoying and dumbest project ever?? IWT. seriously? 10%? I'd rather study the theory. Don't know what to do with it.......

Effcomm??? Hopeless when the teacher has some issues with majority of the class...

SORRY I HAD TO VENT MY FRUSTRATIONS HERE.

2011-06-18T01:26:00.002+08:00

Imma failure. -.- Been playing too hard this week that i've neglected my studies.

And yeah, i've gained 2kg in a few days. ̄ \_(ツ)_/ ̄ ̄

Let's seeeee....I think I've got no plans for next week other than projects...Well, at least I cancelled them. *Rolls eye*

HAH, which reminds me i gotta schedule else idk what plans i have.

So, Im actually left with...EVERYTHING. WHATTTT? Im not done with a single project?!?!

Ok I hate group projects. BYE

2011-06-15T18:35:00.002+08:00

LOL. i've been busy gobbling and munching food these few days. And i know...it's not healthy.

So I've decided that I'm gonna exercise from today onwards if i still wanna eat.

The irony is that when my dad asks me to jog with him, i don't. And when he's at work i wanna jog. HAHA. my parents poked fun of me just now cos' i dont normally jog.

Yuuuupppppp. gonna shower first and study after dinner.

Blood is the new black

2011-06-11T14:27:00.007+08:00

Credits: UNIF S/S 11 LOOKBOOK / nastygal

2011-06-10T19:54:00.001+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK

2011-06-09T22:07:00.003+08:00

DONT THEY MAKE YOU WANNA SNIP OF YOUR FRINGE? argh. why their locks so pretty one!!!! Mine so frizzy, UNFAIR!!!!

and i know what you're thinking, WTF WHY THEY SO CHIO one?!?!

Ok this post is for theresa. Otherwise, shes gonna say im biased.!!!

2011-06-08T23:26:00.016+08:00

Hey! Melissa tan joking made me feel like blogging. Look at her infuriating blogpost...

These days have been really dramatic. My classmates are interesting, you know like... really from all walks of life. Seriously. (No offense)

I think there's quite a few misunderstandings too. But hey, if you're not happy, shouldn't you just clarify it upfront instead of talking shit in the virtual world? HAH, like as if its gonna help if you talk shit online.

I think people need to get this straight...

So whoever the person fucking is, I can ascertain its not me, neither is it my clique.

Though im not sure who the hell everyone's talking about, I don't want to be suspected or involved, why the hell would i wanna find trouble for myself. ( bystander:> I know better than to get involved due to a past incident.) Neither did we breathe a word on the formspring(who is involved).

And hell yeah, we do stalk and talk about it. It piques my curiosity and affects me indirectly whut. Talk about Suspicions and speculations among our own people. (What if people think its me? Im screwed for the next 3years for sth i didnt do. I mean like wtf right) And its not like we even bother and talk about it every single fucking moment. Probably what, like 5min out of 24hours?

For a moment you seem fine, the next you turn me off.

Im truly amazed and speechless...............................

Okayyyyy so these days have been pretty fulfilling, except for dreading the release of my stats+ microe ICA results and projects, especially IWT.

16hours to release of EFFCOMM and 2more days to holidays(its 12:09am now).

NEVERRRRRRR LOVED FOOD AND AFTERNOON NAPS BETTER.

Oh i think im gonna cut my hair again. WAHAHA so tempted to snip off the fringe and another inch...

AND IM SO POOR NOW!!!!!! ive been shopping for the past 3hours but i cant put my hands down on anything. this sucks.

2011-06-04T13:49:00.003+08:00

Vivian Seah Kunmiao!!!!!!!! I've nothing to blog. AHAHAHHA.

2011-05-26T23:25:00.003+08:00

Am so lazy to blog. SHALL just leave 2pictures of my class here for now

2011-05-22T22:48:00.002+08:00

Okay i seriously need to clarify something with myself.

From today onwards...

1. I shall do my own laundry

2. Shall study 3hours on weekdays and 6hours on weekends. (depends on circumstances, but i think i will fail cos i forever sleeping)

3. Shall not buy clothes for 2mths. (IMPOSSIBLE! ok, i cannot spend more than 100 a month on clothes etc, sounds reasonable)

thats all:)

2011-05-15T21:00:00.002+08:00

Seriously...讲钱伤感情.

Needless to say, i'm not gonna repeat myself here already, since I've already mentioned it there so many times. If you feel good taking my $10, take it. I secretly hope you guys suffer from guilt eternally though.

MISER much.

Having problems at home, as in nothing i do is right my head says so. Talk about jealousy. Used to be me, me, and me. Now him. Not that it mattered until we quarrelled.

whatever... no actually honestly, i care. But whats with that? Such a turn-off.

to two person who matters most in the world,

I have flaws everywhere. But i choose to be polite to whoever i want to, cos in my opinion there's no need to, for people who dont deserve it. I have my ways of expressing my gratitude. I'm not a very outspoken person, i prefer to put it into written words. I know that its a disadvantage to me given that you cant see it. I am indeed very lazy, so does someone. If you didn't matter to me, your words won't hurt so deep. I wish i was perfect too, but no one is. You may not believe me, i can't tell you what i'll do, but in the future to come, you'll see. Only time will tell.

2011-05-11T22:33:00.006+08:00

All i wanna say is, IM GONNA INDULGE on clothes, haircut, facial. hahahahaha. I've decided on my fringe style already. I think im either cutting my hair this or next weekend whoohoo. Going to Topshop this weekend too.

I read some articles, saying that bangs look best on oval shaped face...seriously? my mum objects violently. Ok maybe it differs for ppl. either way im still in for cutting. im just afraid that my unruly hair would make it look unkempt/freaky.

Destress. Hi, classmates, dont be so diligent leh...should enjoy life...

2011-05-08T22:10:00.003+08:00

Feeling stressed barely into fourth week of school. You think poly or worse still 17 pointers course funfair no? Definitely not. I swear, I've never revised so much, completed every single homework not even before O levels. Can you imagine me like slacking, watching TV a month even weeks before O's.

Now, here I am, awestrucked by my classmates...at their diligence...Me as compared to them is nothing... I know right what the hell. Somemore ICA coming.

K. Gotta work then school later... So tooooodles. :)

Dripping gold

2011-05-06T23:16:00.004+08:00

Tribal and hairdo

Litas FTW

Yeah i wish my mouth dripped gold.

<3 but way too expensive from last season's collection i think

These few days at school have been extraordinary. Like dramatic only hahahaha. So much happening (bad) than secondary school days. I must say its kind of fun.

Likewise, my studies have been going downhill...i know that sucks. gotta try my best not to get distracted and try to catch up.

(cb flying cockroach flew into living room halfway...moved into room)

I feel shitty after the stagearts audition again. Freestyle: i have no idea what to dance. My ballet techniques and flexibility sucks. so frustrating! thinking of taking up extra classes outside during weekends, but considering the cost and the time constraint....i dont know?

Its like i feel shitty for not being talented in any single shit.

this post is utterly lame and redundant.

p/s. Really dying to get a few pretty bags and shoes. Price is not a problem if its nice :) Of course, within my means.

2011-05-04T00:16:00.002+08:00

I just wanna say...IM SO FUCKING DEPRESSED, like my confidence just shattered into a million pieces again. And that im so fucking tired.

Going to VS RWS tmr to get my VS lappy case. Ya crazy right? Planning to get a few, but i'll settle with vs one first since i have yet to find one i really adore.

Perservere on. U still need to earn big bucks and go to London fashion week...

the boy who murdered love

2011-05-02T21:27:00.009+08:00

Swedish hasbeen x H&M

Holaaaa. Keep blogging recently. So troubled with money issues.

Lol ikr my blog's dead. contemplating if i should switch to tumblr because recently i'm really into fashion and tumblr is like full of fashion inspired pictures. And im beginning to doubt myself, if i am in the right course. Maybe I should have went to NAFA or Lasalle. Too late.

yeah, really got alot of things on my wishlist now. Yet i cant seem to find them locally. fml. Dayummmm. Like bags and shoes i want especially.

There's still many but im lazy to post.

Decided on inviting ppl to crash my house on my birthday. So that I can buy my stuff. Chalet is seriously too costly. LOL. haha ikr i sucks.

When's my VS, TS, Sephora, benefit gonna arrive? Them arriving means another est. 100bucks.

Ohyah ohyah, Something to add on! I have a life?!?! OMG i do? I look like ahlian?!?! Texting=life!?!?! Believe i smoke when i put up an act?!?! I have alot of friends?!?! I drink frequently?!?!

Thats absolutely bullshit. None of them are true, and they came from the same person. So what if you have alot friends but they are literally non-existent? Few close friends beats that hands down. But honestly, None of the single thing above are true

2011-05-01T14:35:00.003+08:00

Just wanna say....

how I wish I can venture into the fashion industry. I get really upset upon seeing beautiful clothes, yet not being able to afford them. Just hoping that if i do well in my for my studies, i'll be able to

1. Earn alot $ and travel alot(so that i can go fashion cities and shop)

2. work for a fashion related industry

Oh which reminds me of.....getting a new wallet, i intend to get it from Love moschino(cheaper range of moschino), Adorable. And probably the moschino belt too! (But since im organising chalet .... this plan needs to be withheld)

And i don't get why people think i'm always after branded stuffs. Used to...but that was ages ago. If you give me a Louis Vuitton/Coach signature bag now, i wouldn't carry it, probably give it to my mum. The thing with branded things is that it comes in a package: design+brand No choice.

Plus mum says if i gets the scholarship from nyp, i can take license, subsequently do braces(need to fork out my own $ too)

Additionally, if i don't make it to a local uni, i can forget about going to uni already because...my mum has not enough savings. Even with the insurance policy...which i can only use after 22, its not even enough for 2years.

STRESS much.

ALL ABOUT MONEY MONEY AND MONEY. FML.

2011-05-01T02:49:00.002+08:00

While waiting for my hair to dry, shall just do a miniscule update...

Things going pretty well these few days. Just lack of monehhhh as always.

Kind of pondering over my 17th birthday plans, recently. 1. chalet 2.bbq(which is like mundane because one of my classmate's doing that tomorrow) 3.karaoke? 4.free lunch/dinner(boring right?)

And happens so poly terms start during mid june. And that we have ICA1 just the week after my birthday. seriously fml? When i finally become diligent and plan a party, this gotta happen.

Need adrenaline rush seriously! So boring, im in for thrills. Apparently, when i out 90% of the time(excluding school), i go shopping. yeah right. Put it in a crude way, i have no life.

Not forgetting studies. Okay, catching up pretty well, just need a little bit more revision.

Ohhhhh, im loving the rihanna's new single california king bed. Finally, a decent song! And The script's science and faith, forever coming up with good songs.

Okay shall end here abruptly!

2011-04-28T00:04:00.002+08:00

Remembered how i kept telling tricia, about my boring life.

Not now, totally. when there's like some friggin misunderstanding in between me, my friend and another classmate. not cool, not cool with that. So we've gotta clear the air soon, else it'd be awkward like mad!

yup....while i was studying just now, i rmbed that me and theresa(1-2weeks ago) sort of promised to hv our naval piercing done, if we did well for sem2. Lol can't wait. the reason why ive been contemplating is cos im afraid the pain is too much for me to bear...more imptly, infection. i tend to get skin shit easily.

Oh well...

which again, reminds me of... getting more bags and shoes, cos when i dont find sth i really really adore, i neglect them.

K, school's tough to get thru especially when the lesson contents are boring/mundane but i gotta buck up and revise at home. At least, i can pinpoint my mistakes and ask. talk about daydreaming again. Usual me, leopard doesnt change its spots, does it?

Okay, so that's that.

2011-04-27T02:30:00.003+08:00

Wow so much has happened @school recently. Just wanna say...

First being, I feel so bad for being so mean. Srsly, there nothing wrong liking someone. But because our last name is 38, y'know girls like to gossip a lot. We mean no harm actually. I won't know how she feels cos I'm not her I don't like anybody in the class, but really what she's gonna do is touching. Maybe one day he'll be touched?

Second being, fml sia. Can't cope with the studies alr. Walau eh fml srsly! Sleep sleep sleep only know how to sleep and daydream. Later my uni fly sia. Cheeeeebbbbs. No one wants to study(except y'know who), wants to go uni. we only do so for our ultimate goal....kaching $ kaching $. So that I can go shopping. And buy branded stuff not for their brand but design. Y'all keep thinking I'm after the brand but lol, I most prolly won't buy lv monogram bag for myself? Told ya, design is -.-.

Erm....I think that's that. For now. I want bags + shoes god pls drop an affordable and chio one. Let me see it and get it.

2011-04-22T00:49:00.022+08:00

Wanted to repost some epic pics from sec2-4 Majority while i was sec 3. Of course i chose the nicest out of a few. HAHAHHAHA. AHLIAN FACE. WALAU.

2008/FEB

Cable car to sentosa....uhm that's side bangs with my bugis $12 dress. hahahahah

2008/DEC:
Me, tryna act ahlian. I HATE THIS. but well, it is fucking funny so i decided to show you guys, sadly.

2009/JAN:
Uhm...me with the pink extension. If im not wrong, i remembered extension was pretty popular then...

2009/FEB:

WITH da amazing mac makeup which got me hooked with mac since then! i lost the rest of the nicer photos. WTH.

2009/APR:
Rebonded my fringe again and me with my cousin at united sq.

2009/JUN:

sentosa with the most amazing+significant ppl in my life.

2009/SEPT:

Remembered I kind of was nursing a broken heartzxzx(which tempted me even more) then and I kind of had the urge to snip off my fringe. with nat's prompt decision, i snipped it off....only to realise it looks horrible in my IC photo cos i had my fringe up.

2010 was a blur....so there u go....
amk performance
my sixteen bday. BORING MEH
A new friend. which i lost contact ever since. LOL
CNY DAY 3

oct? sept? junqi's bday!

Thats bout it.

I THINK I I CAN BE PI! PRIVATE INVESTIGATOR. im fucking amazing i swear. i stalk people and i come up with the most logical + convincing reason. or maybe i can be paparazzi. I feel a little bad, for making fun of a girl who is crushing over another person. uh uh. not exactly making fun! just CURIOUS.

curiosity kills the cat. SHIT. hahaha. Just curious, very curious to see how different a girl is when she's in love. Like you know right, the fluttering eyelids and the ZZZZZZinnnnging eyesight which shoots thunderbolt when is in full of admiration. LOLOL.

I should get a life right? CRAZY.

Im quite notorious for being a stalker. Even i myself think likewise. Ahhhh!

In addition, tricia is in ♥. wow her N is like omgz my dream date sia. just kidding. but seriously, from what she tells me, i bet any girl would melt. So its like, FML why i dont get to know guys like that one. one day!!!

Anyway, i have this friend who recommmended me this tutor job. Pretty well paid i would say. I think i can do it! i have a thing for children like those young ones lah PLUS $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$.

IM $.$ , UKR, IKR. HAHAHAH.

2011-04-11T17:02:00.003+08:00

oh my second post of the day! Uhm...my mum wants me to wear plain tees to school. Okay....NOT. No What the fuck seriously. Only if i feel shitty/am going to be late.

Cannot lah. I NEED to incorporate fashion into my life, else i'd die. It's me, cant help it.

Oh no! My first friend i made in school might not be here anymore, cos she havent enrol yet. OMGZ. she's not local. I'm somewhat alone now.

Im sick of my hair. Feel like highlighting it, snipping the locks. Like more rocker-chic. Lolol! So unlike me, but the usual me is getting more and more mundane

Aiyah, whatever just concentrate on studying. Shopping on wedn myself. holla. hehe.

2011-04-11T09:35:00.002+08:00

Look at this
http://www.fashiontoast.com/2011/04/spring-wishlist.html

then refer to my blogpost dated 2april footfetish

OMGz. i have the same taste as fashiontoast....future fashion blogger wannabe. LOL.

okay, honestly i found this on the actual site itself(theory theysken collection), and i think these wedges are awesome and beyond what i can afford. LOL

2011-04-09T22:40:00.002+08:00

I think I've really woken up!! To study! I desperately need to ace everything to get into a local uni. Cos I don't think my parents cant save enough for me to study abroad. (Ikr, going overseas is damn fun, too bad) neither do I want to go SIM, last choice.

I am really starting to panic before school even starts, before I have a damn idea about what marketing is. All I know is, UNI UNI UNI.

I'm even getting all restless about ballet, grade 6 exams, having to recap grade 1-3 syllabus after MIA-ing for 4years, trying to catch up with the rest cos I ain't learn grade 4/5, competing with the rest for a place to go to australia/UK for training, performance during january 2012, worrying about my flexibility cos I ain't young anymore, strengthless muscles, wondering how to get my grade 4/5 cert.

Contemplating about what cca to join...I'm not even talented in the first place, cos basically I don't do sports, can't act can't sing, just got back into dance recently. Jeez. Maybe martial arts, need to break my "fear of getting injured" barrier. Maybe dance, but I think I can't do hiphop. Maybe ballroom, talk about flexibility again. Maybe cheerleading, flexibility, yet again. Drama, can't act!

Still on therapy for backbone...gonna take at least another 6-12mths.

Meh... I'm such a worrywart. Nat keeps talking about finding a suave + $ boyfriend. I've got so much to accomplish, got big dreams to fulfill, so this is not applicable to me. I really really can't screw up, my last chance. I've been me, myself and I for est. 98% of my life, id say I'm doing fine. Hahahaha, I just need a dose of fashion every now and then.

Talking about that, I kind of wish I can have sponsored clothes. And since fame = sponsored stuffs, I doubt it'll come true.

2011-04-08T00:54:00.004+08:00

since im waiting for my hair to dry, i shall rant, yet again.

Seriously, the reason i spend alot on a piece of clothing- it means the average people won't buy them cos' they're expensive, as in they are thrifty when it comes to clothing.

Then, it means it is uncommon....you won't bump into another person wearing the same as you! Plus, i think it leaves a lasting impression cos' you're unique! Sort of.

I think fashion defines me. If I were to go out with slippers, tees and shorts, no freaking human will like talk to me, remember me, look at me....cos' im like typical. They'll probably just walk past you like you never existed. That is why i'm trying to make an effort to dress up, to be "abnormal" you see. I think it kind of open doors to opportunities when you look presentable.

And that is why, i spend so much on clothes. Logical.

AND OMGZ, why those fashion bloggers always always get sponsored pretty clothes. I WANT LEH.

Just got my salary, but I, y'know need to dress up so er.......maybe like in a week it'll be gone. So far so good, haven't spent a single cent. Ok, except for the shipping fees of my last purchase☺

P/S.. MY TOPSHOP BABIES ARE SNAGGGED BEFORE I COULD GETCHA. RIP.(REFER TO FIRST PIC ON POST DATED 2/4/11) why!!!! u know i love ya more than words can say. (siao!)

FOOT FETISH

2011-04-02T12:07:00.004+08:00

The most affordable shoes here? Topshop Libby. I think it has been out for quite awhile. Shit, why havent i discovered such amazing shoes. Need to look for it now

2011-03-26T17:22:00.002+08:00

wait, i realised something....When i let my emotions override my normal self, the way i speak becomes more profound(?) Talk about chim. If only i'd done this during O's.

Just kidding.

2011-03-26T16:27:00.006+08:00

Doing literally nothing at home. FML.

I even recorded myself singing, to hear what i sounded like over the speakers/phone/recorder. keke. I sound like a kid, which i hadnt really known till now.

Doing my ballet homework, so that i get to pass grade 6, do splits w/o effort. And hopefully after grade 6(end of year), i get to enrol in grade 4 and grade 5 to get the certification. Yeah, i am that crazy, i kind of like things to be perfect.

Then maybe I'll learn a bit funk/lyrical jazz, seems fun, to me. Nah, no aspirations to be a dance teacher, just a passion/keeping fit.

Just remembered how i used to be a pushover cos' i didn't stand up and retaliate. Utterly hopeless. In my mind, i knew what to say, i didn't want to, too fucking polite i guess. I remember when i was 13/14, some fucking dickhoe teachers are so fucking unreasonable. I should have been like "Im done here" instead of staying put and not listening.(I wasn't really paying attention as i was kind of pissed as hell.)

And the teacher in charge goes "You can't dance."

I'm dancing right now ain't I? Anyone can move to the music, duh. Can't believe i'd stood rooted there. I'll never forget this sentence, and you know some day(soon), I'm gonna invite you to watch me perform. No, i don't hate you, just wanna prove you wrong. Who are you to judge me? You can deny that you've ever said this(though beside me was cheryl, she probably heard nothing.), like how you "protected" your "apples" in modern dance. When natalie and me stood up, what was done? I didn't see nor feel a difference. In the resignation letter i wrote for modern dance, i wrote what i felt and what i see. Why, would i make a baseless accusation? (Despite having some irreconcilable dispute between me and the chairman back then.)

I know i'm definitely not the kind of person who would do that, like as if i don't know how to differentiate between personal and impersonal affairs. Whether anyone believes it or not, i know i've got a clear conscience. I'm just stating facts based on my point of view, and i swear i can still remember the scene, vividly.

Before i even went to NV, I already knew what i wanted to joined. Kind of, dancing. Too bad, I kind of feel out of place there, and there you go, i'm out even faster then i imagined.

So much for this sentence. I feel so fucking offended that even after 4years I still can't help but want to justify myself. Will remember this for my entire life, not by my will. Cant help.

p/s Now that i think clearly, actually i need not invite her. I mean I'm dancing now, its only that you cant see, cos' you don't deserve it. I mean i suppose you're in msia too

SO, TAKE THAT, BITCH!

FUCK YEAH, i feel so contented now.

2011-03-22T22:40:00.008+08:00

I am kind of yearning for some normalcy back into my life again. All these dramas, it really gets on my nerves. (Not that i have a life, with my schedule filled with "work", "work" and yes, "work")
Having friends who are literally here and not here. I don't know. It kind of pisses me off when we can't communicate well sometimes. We know, i'm sure we do, though we don't breathe a word about this traction. Clearly, I cant muster enough courage to do something about this and i'm letting it be. It's been like that for almost 2years.
Oh, Can't believe I actually fell for a liar for two days. Thank god man. His words are not credible at all. To think that I put aside my prejudices and not judge someone based on what shit heck of things he's done. I mean I still treat him as a friend even after i got over my infatuation. Lol.

Well, he tried to borrow $ from me to dye his hair, telling me he ain't got money to do so cos its not with him. I stood to my ground of not lending/borrowing unless necessary. Guess what, turns out he still went ahead anyway. Oh so turns out he HAS the dollar bills and he lied. What a jerk, seriously!

I'm not enraged, or disappointed...just like wth seriously. His motives for doing so? Impossible to fathom yet. So, he's just my colleague now and probably ever. I hate liars, especially "moneysuckers".

I can't help but want to say this...again...CANT WAIT FOR SCHOOL, when i can have my life back to normal.

2011-03-15T23:41:00.002+08:00

My condolences to the people in Japan. Have to admit...i'm kind of astounded at the mass destruction the tsunami/earthquake has caused.

Currently nursing myself back to health. Contemplating if i should return to work tomorrow or shop.

I disappointed my friends, by rejecting their offer to hangout last minute. Am truly sorry. Me a Workaholic.

So many things i wanna get online. The barrier restraining me from getting them is because of my body physique. Im a tad bit off clothing sizes. Really difficult to carry off clothings well.

Argh frustrating! Then the money really flies away easily.

2011-03-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

Lol. I just removed the previous post, as a draft. Ugh, seriously what the hell is wrong with me. PLATONIC YES PLATONIC. No doubt bout' that. And hey, i seriously did NOT resume my work because of that erm....what tricia called: An infatuation (that did not last beyond 2days)

Im full of BS.

Just got my camera @ the IT Fair. Chose a Canon digital one instead of the DSLRs. I mean its cool and takes amazing shots and all but I know nuts about them. So it doesnt make any sense for me to use them. My camera is pretty cool with the fisheye, toy camera, miniature effects. Im good with it. I paid for my camera(*shows off*):)

My life's ...pretty much different from my secondary school days? As in, it feels as though im on some kind of whirlwind ride. I dont feel any different, but I dont mean to boast or whatsoever. I've been receiving more attention/compliments/harrassments ever in my entire life, in terms of my looks. And with people telling me i look different/grown up, i feel weird. (All i did is to smile shyly, i mean what am i supposed to say.)It's pretty much exaggerated.

Sort of, i dont know how to put it into words. Thats what i observed/realised recently.

I want to go to school badly! I miss hanging out with friends. ALOT.

Will post pictures taken by my new camera soon. hehe

2011-03-03T00:38:00.003+08:00

I want the earcuffs (aforementioned) so badly. Been searching, but to no avail. Maybe i should try ebay?

I feel the urge to get my navel piercing after seeing so many pretty jewelry online.

ARGH

Wait a few more days when im finally not working+ get my salary, i'll confirm guarantee chop spend a few hundred dollars.I'm just resisting the urge to spend... for a month already! Okay excluding the f21 shorts i just bought recently.

2011-03-02T02:02:00.009+08:00

Sheer floaty maxi skirt

Simply constructed ring

Scallop dress

Vintage clutch

Cat eye shades

Apple shades

Ear cuff

Pictures: ASOS, Thecherryblossomgirl

My current cravings from ASOS. Ahhh. Majority are oos. I want the ear cuff + scallop dress especially.

2011-02-25T23:59:00.003+08:00

Okay, i think im kinda getting used to being at work. Feels odd at home. HAHA.

Had my first ballet lesson in 4years. Didnt went to well i guess. Forgot all the french terms for the steps. I swear i learnt those before but i forgotten them. Grade 1-3 stuff. Got to do some revision online. God. The only thing i remember is Pirouettes(whatever its spelt)Then the instructor is damn fierce can, but he always stutters when scolding and speaks broken english!! I am damn determined to do ballet once and for all, to get distinction for all the RAD examinations. I don't know what grade im learning now, no one told me. All i know is that im in the adult intermediate class. LOL.

Others can spilt, mine's like a quarter. FAILZ

I got rejected by TP. Oh well, i wont have to compete with over 500 students at TP. Just 80 at NYP. I need to study hard, my ass off.

The first twenty seconds of JLS-Eyes wide shut is incredibly good. Liking the beat too. Loving taylor swift's new album. Overplaying Mcfly's thats the truth.

Im totally in love with A-pop. Since 2years ago.

And i was just wondering... Did i change a lot since my primary school days as compared to now. I felt that people look at me in a different way back then, more negative. Maybe cus i was an extraordinarily ugly kid. (OMG, my primary 4 photo's on fb. the ugliest ever)

2011-02-24T10:34:00.003+08:00

I dont quite know what to type here.

P/S i'm ending work soon. yay! (I kind of wonder how some ppl manages to work for a few years or 10, w/o changing jobs, because im already so sick of working even though its been 3months only.)

Haven't been spending alot lately, thanks to my determination to afford a pretty bag. Gonna be busy with my poly registration

And er...yeah i'm back to ballet. Like tomorrow. HAHA.

so...that'll be it! Be back when i have pretty things to share. Ciaos~

2011-02-14T23:23:00.002+08:00

What am I doing now, this V's day?

My own facial! (Tricia "put me aeroplane" cos she's sick)

So proud of myself, my face's glowing!! Cheeks and lips are pink.

Used the KOSE mask just now. I've to admit its pretty difficult to apply evenly, especially when its damn thick. Maybe I should use a spatula. The effect? Face becomes brighter, able to spot some dead skin removed. Its not that amazing, neither is it bad.

I'm loving the chanel lip balm!! The lips shade becomes lighter over time. It seems smoother + more hydrated.

Good news!! I'm almost recovering from scoliosis already. In only a month! Amazing. Id definitely recommend the doctor to anyone who suffers from it as well. Its does not even hurt that much. 3/10 however, I still have a bit of problem with my backbone at the waist area, not scoliosis.

Dropped by chinatown to purchase my new hair conditioner + curl leave on. Hehe. Costed me a bomb! Psssst...chinatown sells salon+counter brands cheaper. Bought kerastase OLÉO-CURL cream to style my curls, OLÉO-RELAX mask as a conditioner, OLÉO-RELAX serum for frizzy hair. (Whole range for frizzy hair)

Hesitating whether to buy Bain Vital shampoo and their hair tonic(hair loss). Cos the silkpro one I'm using now(curls+coloured for sensitive scalp) sucks to the max! My parents bought it, not wanting to waste it...I used it.
My scalp is so flaky and itchy now. Wtf! At least I'm alternating my paul mitchell shampoo 2, else i'd die of itch.

Contemplating whether to use SK-II also or stick with Clarins. But the advertisements with the models/artiste are tempting me to buy with their gorgeous bright skins!!

Also, I can't decide whether to buy my CHLóE bag or DSLR!!

Don't know which perfume to get too!
1) giorgio armani acqua di gioa
2) gucci flora- don't like the powdery smell aft awhile
3) lanvin jeanne
4) dkny fresh blossom
5) chloe *iforgotwhat*
6) marc jacobs daisy
7) lancome miracle - also powdery aft awhile =(

2011-02-13T00:57:00.003+08:00

I must have lost my mind, utterly during these 2months working.

Really really hate this point of my life right now, when I gave up my youth, friends, and family to my material needs.

I probably have no friends have, because I kind of abandoned them, plus they have their lives to lead.(JC) imagine my delirium when I saw cheryl after a long month.

I'm feeling like a total bitch now. Would someone take me out please. At least I have tricia for now, as promised. To sing to party.

Can you even believe that my brother has much more of a life them me? Enjoying themselves over at our place. Makes me damn jealous.

My only source of entertainment? Fashion blogs. Yum. (Fml)

The only friends(not close) I have and in contact with, now, are my colleagues who are about the same age as me. One of them is my malay colleague at nex. For now, at kovan, I've a guy friend. (Platonic r/s only)

Your superiors, a friend, yes. But you can't blabber whatever you want, cos they are still your superior.

Anyhow, I need to get a life. Probably working part time during march.

Valentine's drawing closer, I've no date, prolly tricia...pathetic much. But I'm in no hurry to find my valentine. Haha! Speaking of that, it reminds me of my company dinner, when red wine was served. Seeing everyone drink to their hearts content. Whereas I was hesitating...1) stay healthy with a functioning liver or drink and die 2) I've no consort(boyfriend/friend), what if I get wasted and get raped on my way home? 3) I lose myself to the alcohol and shame myself.

So I took only a sip or two.

Yeah, I know I'm paranoid. (Probably kind of PMS too)

2011-02-06T00:28:00.016+08:00

My LITAS in Mustard

Sneak-a-peek of my new desk

Furniture at corner looks out of place,but it'll be gone in a jiffy, after i tidy up my room.

Top; F21 Bottom; Topshop

toothy grin. :D

just after i got my hair dyed two weeks back...

Top; Topshop

Liking the makeup

Chanel or EsteeLauder

Bangs?

Top; F21 Bottom; F21 Bag; Nastygal Shoes; JC litas Bracelet; topshop

(I was on my way to dreamland already, hence the expression)

2011-02-05T02:33:00.002+08:00

Yawns I'm so exhausted... going to bed now.

I was just wondering, does anyone even bother to visit this space now? Might do a proper post tomorrow.

P/S I miss taking pictures with my friends. Not those narcisstic photos ok. those fun ones.

FML now. I've got money, just not enough. I've got friends, not by my side.

PERSERVERE ON! till march! thats all.

Hooked onto back to december-taylor swift yet again. I'm feeling the song, not that the lyrics is of any relevance.

I need to get a life. :(

2011-01-27T23:57:00.009+08:00

uh oh i better stop spamming photos.

Okay i must save up for these. C'mon i can do it. Should eat cheaper stuff and work my ass off. Need to get my dslr too. oh god!

2011-01-19T23:36:00.004+08:00

Went wardrobe searching during monday. but seriously, what is with their designs? Each and every company i went to at jalan (i forgot).... had the same design. Well, i did actually found one that i took a liking to. It's unique. However, the ceiling of my room is too low.

So I just had to make do with a normal one. Its not cheap either...but i guess that'll do for the next few years.

I ordered a sequin shorts 2days ago. Surprisingly, barely into the second day it was sold, it's gone. ABSOLUTELY gone. I kinda didnt expect that. guess i'll have to pay a visit to their physical shop during my MC day(I'm taking MC to finish up what's left: painting, shopping for cny).

sighs.

Interview at NYP just now, i think it went well.

I think I want to paint part of my room green. Awesome? Need to save up to buy wall decors from UO, it's costly. Besides, it is possible that my decor will get ruined during shipping. What a risk to take!

Oh right....which reminds me... i just met a laotiko at NTUC Xtra AMK. siao eh.

totally excited about revamping my room. I love my current style too. okay, except when im working. Say yeah to beautiful clothes and shoes. Marc Jacobs, YSL, miumiu just u wait. Chanel Spring'11 eyeshadow will be mine too. DKNY perfume mine too. whahahaha

2011-01-14T23:06:00.003+08:00

This picture is stolen from you know where. Hah!

HAHAHOHOHEHE. Spent 200++ bucks with mom at Topshop just now. Feels good. Im like a fucking topshop fanatic now. My mom is influenced by me as well.

I'm so into leather recently. And the last four pieces of clothes i ever bought are all from topshop.

I just caught my eye on another Cream Crochet Poncho again. I'm so a wintry and fall person. Lol.

Okay now, what colour should i dye my hair? Aiya fuck i dont have enough money to make it through New year. why must i receive my pay after CNY. ahhh im such a worrywart.

I need a new wardrobe. Its exploding!

2011-01-14T15:46:00.008+08:00

My results sucked. Utterly disappointed in English. C'mon, honestly that's not my standard. But fine, at least i'm able to qualify into courses that i want. Just not the polys i want.

I just submitted my JAE and JPSAE application. Hate it okay. Time consuming and I kept spouting vulgarities throughout. hahahaha!

2days off from work...And after 17th I am gonna chiong work till New Year's Eve. Good luck to me. -Sighs disapprovingly-

My account is drying up. I still have JC shoes to buy, my topshop top, Dkny perfume, Chanel skincare and the list goes on....

Okay I shall cut the crap and share with you some babies. I've been wanting to do so, but havent got the time!

Cleans waterproof eye/lip make-up including residues with just one/two drop(s).

Amazing or what? I'm not exaggerating, its true.

Retailing at SGD$40.

I'm currently using sample bottle and it seems to able to last me for a month.

It's pricey so actually I'm planning to get more samples when i purchase another item.

I know i'm a smartsaver(cheapskate).

This....I don't know if it's true.

But ever since I used it, i haven't had eyebags.

Obvious ones at least.

Lately i've had ample sleep as well.

Again, im da smartsaver.

I've two sample tubes, should be able to last me a month too.

Retailing at SGD70+

Very absorbent and really moisturizes.

Little sticky feeling and after about 1hour its completely absorbed.

Temporary lipgloss also!

hahaha this time im not cheapskate.

I bought this okay.

Retailing at SGD$55

As for their white essentiel cleanser and toner... its not too much of an obvious difference. Maybe I haven't used it enough. I think my clarins cleanser and bodyshop toner is good enough. I'll tell you guys about their foundation on chinese new year. hahaha.

As for hair products, I am totally against ESSENTIAL okay. I bought the shampoo, conditioner and mask. It made my scalp itch more and its not like my hair became softer. gah.

Gonna try either Redken/Kerastase/ schwarzkopf(omg i can spell this! hahaha). Currently spamming Vitamin oil, 2 random tubes of moisturizers, hair ampoules, Loreal serum, and shop testers onto my hair. I wanna dye my hair before CNY. omfggggg

I know this is an effing shitty post. bye im gonna shop

2011-01-06T23:30:00.003+08:00

I desperately need to catch up on my life. Been working insanely these days.

Was posted to united sq two days back and now amk for today and tmr. Ah! OT tmr, exhausting.

Trust me, schooling is waayyyy better. How I regret not taking my studies srsly!

When u work, u don't have to use your brains. True! But its like I miss relaxing and my friends. I probably am not in touch with almost all of my friends already. That's the sacrifice u have to make.

These days I've been out of my comfort zone, vying with people with other outlets. Not cool. At all.
Plus, I'm getting reprimanded too.

Certificates decide if I get to reprimand ppl or vice versa. Yesyes, I'm so not going to get reprimanded in the future. Study!

Received my pay already! 20% of it went to my cpf. -.- damn. I need more $. Buying LV wallet for sure. Yay.

One LV wallet 2 Jeffery campbells, I'm broke alr. What about my perfume, kerastase, lv bag for mum, dinner treat for grandma, clothes for dad, perfume/fredperry for bro, clothes,bags for myself, Room furniture,furnishing.

*Faints.*

2011-01-03T17:30:00.020+08:00

About the sequence of the photo, i know its a tad bit weird. pardon me, im rushing for work in 10minutes! Everything taken on dec'10!

2011-01-02T23:12:00.003+08:00

Oh my god! Time really flies right. Its been eight days since I had my off-day. I had my ups and downs for this week.

Incessant naggings from colleagues. Screwing up. Getting 30cent comm a day. Being late and gonna have to replace 3 hours. What'd you say?

The good thing? I am wearing a corset to improve my posture, which is practically nothing when compared to the hardass braces I had previously(and didn't wear). Buttt... it helps to firm the tummy and shapes the bust also. Hahaha! Good right? Then I won't have a tummy anymore. Think I'm skinny? Wait till u see my bigass tummy bulge out when I eat. In addition, I'll have to do some exercises every night. That's not even the end. I have to visit tcm clinic. Terrible but can't wait till the day when I have a better figure. Hehe!

I think I have learnt a little bit of household chores!! Like wiping, vacuuming. I think I'm getting better at selling. Whahaha! Today comm is 10bux yo!

Other than that, I'm trying to eat healthily! Yes to awesome skin. Even bought chanel lip balm( no more purple lips!!) which came with loads of samples. If its good I'll get their skincare range.

Oh ya, I'm getting my LV wallet. I wonder if I can still get my JCs because I don't think I have enough $. Lol

I'm so fucking afraid to get my results back. Fuckkkk. Can I like retake O's ? I fucking fell sick before bio paper, it was easy. This feeling sucks

2010-12-30T00:26:00.003+08:00

today was a erm... average day i guess. I really suck man, i gave up my life, my youth to monehhh.

Collected my 200bux(EAGLES award) this morning, went over to topshop to have a look. ( couldnt resist the temptation> 20% storewide) despite rushing for work. i ended up being late for 30mins and had to replace 3hours. Im okay with that since there's commission. (I'll purposely replace on peak hours, more commission)Since both my colleagues were in msia, they got staffs from other outlets to replace them. and they were fierce(in grabbing customers). so my commission for today? A mere 30cents. lol.

yup, so that was that. anddddd i ended up buying a PU leather jacket from topshop(UP $119), despite the fact that i'll hardly get to wear it in S'pore. perhaps @nex since the aircon there is freezing. Yes, i did borrow the $ from my mum first. Ah, i wonder if she'll scold me for spending carelessly.

And I've yet to pay my colleague for the chanel lip balm. coming tmrw. so excited. kind of miss them! ahaha.

so ive been consistently working like crazy although i am not quite adapting to this kind of lifestyle. keep telling myselfto perservere for the sake of luxuries. Its like i wanna quit asap, but there's is not enough $.

Drives me nuts. my room is halfway done, just the furnitures...have yet to search for the perfect ones. too busy. my bro's? A new TV and new cupboards already.

gosh, i dont know what to say already. Wish money would just fall from the sky. im now considering if i should quit on march/april.

my endless wishlist. bwahhh

trying to fix my frizzy/dry hair so i can dye it brown before new year. wish me luck. my colleague from another outlet knows a hairstylist from shunji matsuo. hopefully, i get to dye it there at a reasonable price. ohhh yeahhh!

2010-12-23T23:21:00.002+08:00

Okay, I'm so frustrated right now. I kind of can't control my emotions. Sometimes, when I'm extremely pissed, tears just flow. Not exactly sad, but pissed.

Coming home to see my room looking like a piece of junk. At least for years to come. Imagine that!

Last weekend, me and my family went to choose the colour scheme for the paint. So my bro took sky blue and I took cotton white. Initially, I wanted something different but relented after my mum asked me to save $. So we took the cotton white one as well.

Then I suggested painting a wall blue. Fucking wrong decision. Disastrous I tell you. Ugly as hell.

Then I became very pissed and blamed my mum. Really can't help it!! Although I know I'm partially at fault. I should have been more insistent.

So, I am gonna research for better options and fucking paint everything from scratch on my off day. And I will pay myself ok! And get a new closet when I've time to pick.

Cbbbbbb lah. Bo lui already.

2010-12-22T23:07:00.004+08:00

Lol. I'm going crazy again. I've got a wasted youth. Fancy working while you are supposed to be on holidays/vacations.

What to do? I do not have any other choice, do I?

I've made up my mind to do whatever it takes to correct my posture. Okay fuck that. I'm just afraid I'll faint before its even done.

The chanel lip balm cost 55bux. Okay right? The previous one I bought was around 30bux and its not like its a lot.

Fuaxvk sia, my mistakes at work already cost me almost 10bux. There goes my pootpoot. Ok yunhui concentrate!! Sales is average recently, but the target is xtremely high. Unrealistic target. The moneh collected for mistakes is for a mass supper amongst my colleagues and I. Ok not that bad.

I'm getting commission already! So I'm relying on myself now. Damn shitass I swear.

There's a company rule like this: if I say hello to the customer first, he's mine.

Its like I picked that customer up. Then I ask my senior colleagues for help, like a qns.
Then my colleague will continue talking and introduce the customers more things. And I don't get a chance to speak. Then so far my colleagues have been keying my staff code in.(don't know about the future)

After that when the customer's done, Then my superior told me " by right should have been hers"
I mean what am I supposed to do? Feel bad? Not ask next time if I don't know a single shit? If she did not want to help me I'm ok, I just need a little guidance that's all.

If key in her code, then isn't it called stealing? Helping is helping, stealing is stealing. If she do key in hers, I tell you that everyone is ruthless and selfish there, because they don't give a damn whether I'm adapting well there.

So frustrated, not angry!! I feel bad yet at the same time, since its my customer, shouldn't I be the one doing the most talking?

But so far so good, because my colleagues teaching me the ropes. But I've already seen backstabbing. Scary no?

And permanent full time staff have damn many perks lah! Every 3mths can claim $300 worth of products from the shop. Certain items only. Anyway, I definitely can't cos I'm temporary full time staff. Wtf.

Oh I was thinking of working during my next school holidays also. But they say might be part time. If part time 1hour $5 no commission I confirm just kiao ka one. Like duh!

Anyway, I buay song now. I am gonna get my diploma and degree and then go back there and boss ppl ard instead of being bossed ard like I am now. Lol! Hahaha good idea right?

Omg this is a freakin crazy post.

2010-12-20T00:58:00.003+08:00

Okay! So many things to fret and worry about right now.

First thing first! I'm going to a chiropractor to cure my scoliosis. Provided I can I find one!
I bet its fucking painful. My colleague said that they'll loosen the tissues around the backbone first. Next they'll dig your backbones to the center and lastly push it inwards. Ohmyfucking.....how she rated it>8/10

I hope they sedate me with anesthesia before doing that. Fuckyeah. I have no choice, do I?

Secondly, I did my research and found out that basically, yoga improves your posture. So I'm in for that I guess? No more ballet! Boooo!

Thirdly, I'm in the midst of revamping my room. So is the rest of my family.

Fuck lah, why does everything have to do with money. Its like I hate it but I can't do w/o it so I love it.

most importantly, class chalet was awesome! Loved the part when we waited for sunrise and went to wildwildwet. Haha! Love u guys! Its a pity I lost 50 fucking bux to go WWW. !@#$ fml.

Should I get my naval piercing? Even more tempted to get it after seeing my colleague's one. I'm afraid of infections/priblems arising

Now that I'm working full-time. I can't find the time to do things I want. Like looking for chiropractors, whiten teeth, painting rooms and even bathing. Lol!

2010-12-15T23:18:00.002+08:00

My wishlist is never-ending. Materialistic...

Y'know what? I dont feel like going anywhere at all, not even class chalet. The work is draining my energy away. I just feel like sleeping sleeping and sleeping.

Okay, things to add to the wishlist.

-CHANEL/DIOR foundation (heard their coverage damn good)

-CHANEL lip balm (heard from colleagues that its damn good but the price even better, $89)

-DKNY Apple/cherry or others Eau de Parfummmmm.

I should invest in a good foundation since my work nature requires make up. and i dont wanna smell like poop, must buy some sweet floral/yummy fruity perfume.

BTW hair ampoules are awesome. hehe. using them right now. bought it from my workplace.

2010-12-15T00:16:00.001+08:00

Lara stone for Louis Vuitton Spring'10

Just wanna say Happy Birthday to my dearest cherlulu! Looking forward to the class chalet. :D

2010-12-12T23:09:00.003+08:00

Been obssessed with working lately. Work=$ duh of course I'm obssessed.

I'm adapting well and learning pretty fast. As compared to the previous staffs they hired(and got fired btw), I'm much better. They said that, I didn't! So far I screwed up badly once a day. Key in wrong amount, break a shower cream. Oops! Haha I'm damn blur.

$ motivates me.

Free testers to use...good right! Get to spray branded perfumes, use free leave in treatment essence occassionally in the name of "learning".

Plus plus I learnt a lot! Like eau de parfum is for women only and is longer lasting. Eau de toilette is for both men/women and is not lasting. Perfume smells: musky, refreshing, floral, fruity etc

I'm darn ass smart and good at these things already right! Haha I know.(self delusional again)

Overall, its the best job I've ever had.

Pay wise...basic + 3% inhouse commission + pootpoot$ + shop target = kaching

Good right. So far sales has been damn good. Hitting shop target everyday. (Today triple! Whoo) hopefully this will continue so I can get extra 150bux. Wakaka. Hopefully I get more pootpoot$ too! (Pootpoot$ refers to extra $1-5 we earn for selling certain products) commission wise I can only get it on 3rd week.

My colleagues, sometimes they are mean, sometimes crazy, sometimes nice. Like middle aged (furthermore married) women who acts like youngsters. They are m'sians. -.-

Like there's this commotion everyday from a certain unnamed shop.

Girls screaming(with the act cute slutty tone) "Freeee samples"
Stella(speaks with irritation funnily) shuddup leh! Very irritating.

Even I myself think that its gross ttm. Selling products or your flesh?

I'm can see a little spotlight shining on my jeffery campbell shoes already. Omg! Or maybe some other branded babies. Omg I can't see my mulberry bag. Zzzz

I'm kind of in$ane right now.

$$

2010-12-12T23:06:00.000+08:00

2010-12-05T16:03:00.004+08:00

This JC oxfords is "yum".

Thinking of ways to double the cash. Am not touching the dollar bills until i see triple zeros at the back of the sum of my bankbook.

I.. uh can't believe it. I had 100views last month. I am truly amazed. Probably revamping the blog when i feel like blogging full-time.

2010-12-04T23:35:00.007+08:00

Work was pretty fantastic. Of course, the cons far outweighed the pros, so i had to leave. I mean the people there was amazing and i had a great time, but guess my feet isn't adapting well to the pressure. I do miss them though!

I feel that my life's lacking of something. Don't exactly know how to explain that either. Y'know everything i wanna do EVER revolves around money. Exactly.

And $ doesn't come easy. Wished i could rewind time and took my Olvl's seriously. (okay wtf am i talking?)

Cant help but admire those people who can afford luxury. (especially when i'm catching GossipGirl)

To dos:

-ballet grade 5

-learn how to cook by attending cooking lessons

-tie braids

-get pretty shoes (like Jimmychoos, miumiu etc cos' i swear i love their designs)

-get a nice expensive bag for mum and myself

-get a job asap

-braces (ohgod im taking forever to find my dentist)

And im still considering over my navel piercing. I mean should i? what if it gets infected?

FUCK THE $

I feel like a failure. I sound depressed and boring i know. Just FML. It really does drive me nuts that i cant do anything right. My life's really messed up when it comes to this: $

When i do something right, i'll be back then. till then.

($150 to survive through Xmas? I sound really despo right now. I could really use some 4d.)

2010-11-25T00:32:00.005+08:00

Okay. It's been ages since i blogged. To keep things memorable, i decided to blog about red camp. (Pictures on fb fyi, not posting any here)

First day.

Boarded bus and found this group of malay guys noisy and irritating. (Had little sleep the night before.) Pretty irritated and kind of did not like them.

HAHA. Irony is, on that day itself...after lunch during cheer, me and yy wandered around. So we found a group of ppl playing/singing/dancing on stage. Could not help but join them in their upbeat singing and dancing. LmaoRofl. Then that group of malay guys joined in as well! And somehow, we became friends like that.

I know. pretty awesome right?

For the whole of three days, we cheered/danced/sang tgt. Eccentric, attention-grabbing, and insane i would say. HAHAHA. Yeah cool.

We did something rly hilarious as well, to dance to an indian song. So fucking hilarious that during the 5minutes we did the dance, me and yy couldn't stop laughing.

Ah, omg and there was this guy from blabla(Ma____) school, who kept looking at me. Y'know like every single time i secretly turn ard to look (cos' im scared), he'll be there gazing at me and smiling. omfg. I dont mean to....As a matter of fact, honestly, from my perspective lah. So every single time, i try to avoid his gaze and ignore.

The best part about the whole camp was probably... the 1st day when we sang as though we're in a concert(when we became friends with that grp of guys). Although i hate to admit it, they made the camp fun.

During the "hot night", dancing segment, I see everyone going mad crazy. yeah its prolly cos' i dont think anyone's gonna judge u there right? And it sucks when you dont have your friends to accompany you.

Oh and me and yy only spotted 2 cute guys. Both on Monday. Gosh!!!! ahahahaha.

Was just wondering if I should have went for tprawks because everyone's saying that its better. awww

2010-11-05T20:22:00.002+08:00

i want something from here. can you guess what? anyway i need the monehhh.

spent close to 200bucks ytd, from my mum's pocket of course.

lets not talk bout' O's ok. oh who's reading no one for sure.

anyway.........NICHKHUN!!!!!!!!!! YAYAY!

2010-09-22T22:35:00.004+08:00

If there's any shoes i love now, it'd be Senso Wilma. It is freakin 235SGD ok. and OOS also. preorder????i have not a single cent.

Uhm...i am speechless regarding what happened this morning. i had no idea what i was doing. in a spur of moment i sort of panicked and... yeah.

Lol. i am more embarrassed for my actions than ever. lol. ok drop it. i didnt mean to anyway.

oh i was in better spirits when i got back my biology mock exam. Honestly, my results are so-so or sucky. But i'm contented enough! Because i did fucking badly during prelims(dozing off during paper).

This time, my hard work paid off and i got twice as much compared to previously. Cool. even though i still failed. Not that i put in that much hardwork and sweat into it. An extra 20% i would say.

2010-09-08T22:25:00.008+08:00

Can't wait till after O's whereby i'll work like crazy and i'm on the way to one unprecedented massive shoe collection.

I dream of beautiful things...not books. argh!

P/S im so jealous of fashion bloggers who can afford lovely clothes. makes me wanna cry. :(
maybe one day it'll be my turn. lol

2010-09-08T18:39:00.003+08:00

Lol...guess what? i was about to go to youtube to check out tooth extraction. Cos' i'm scared. stupid right.

bro said "go youtube see for what, see already more scared"
me "oh yeah right"

Can't wait but im scared...i hope i don't get ulcers, dont have to extract any tooth(best still no need extract) Ahhh keep forgetting to call the dentists to check the pricing.

Note to self: rmb to call up the dentists tmr.

Down at isetan sales just now. spent 150++dollars on clarins facial wash...a very expensive lip essence and a le chatau watch...

hmmm...first time trying clarins product. expensive though. hope its worth the price.

lolol i wanted to post some zilian photos but bro interrupted and want to use to comp... aww next time

2010-09-07T14:08:00.004+08:00

can't believe it...i want so many things from h&m. zzz...-.-

Lol. imma sort of hooked on katy perry's upcoming single firework and the unfortunately...obscene song: peacock. the beat is nice nevertheless.

really really want to get over and done with o lvls. so frustrating to be not-me. i like to dress up. but i haven't got much clothes to wear these days. frustrated till the extent i'd rather not go out if i can't find anything appropriate to wear.

Furthermore, i've got pimples outbreak recently. Not like previously. Got like 7 pimples on my forehead?

Speaking of pimples(digressing), when i went for facial last week, the beautician had told me to perm my lashes since they were long. I'd never realised that and never even considered so. Great idea...beats doing lash extension.(not that i wanted to do lash extension anyway) That would be after O's

And i just fell out with someone days ago. anyhow, that person takes things too personally. Admittedly, i'm sarcastic and straightforward at times. thought he'd know....wait he does know. ok whatever. besides, he's reputedly bad tempered in the first place.

Ok byez

2010-09-04T22:32:00.002+08:00

muhhahhaha. my aunt's going to hk in 2weeks. And it just happened so that she likes HM and she's going there. OH DOUBLE TRIPLE YES. i got her to help me buy some stuff. she'll choose. hopefully she gets me what i like. YESYESYES!!!

I checked online and i sort of requested alot of things. i don't think she'll buy that much or even be able to drag it back sg. lol but still...buy a little better than nth.

2010-09-03T16:40:00.002+08:00

I just need to tolerate for another 3months.

stop watching movies and drama serials. Jeez...i spend at least 2hours watching tv everyday. Oh i caught changelling and He's just not into you recently. I like changelling although i don't know it's my tv or the show which is of bad quality. I suppose it's an good ol' show, hence the poor lighting. He's just not into you is not my type of show though it has a star studded cast like jennifer aniston, drew barrymore, scarlett johansson etc.

I can't stop eating! And i keep having cravings for chicken recently. Well, since O lvl is round the corner, i can't be bothered to maintain a balanced diet. And i love my mum x100. She keeps buying me lots of supplements and asking me to consume as much as possible cos' money's not a problem. LOL.

And I'm having private biology tuition now. Very expensive... :( So thankful to my mum for everything...supplements, $tuition$, braces and lots more. Y'know what, maybe i don't deserve such an amazing mum...nevertheless i still am thankful.

Andddddd....i don't know what i should write alr. so i shall stop here.

P/S i miss shopping!!!!

2010-08-27T07:53:00.004+08:00

I didn't realise YOG could be fun until the 12th day of YOG, when we went for the table tennis match. :( I wanted the ending ceremony tix, but unfortunately it was sold out.

I swear its so fun when you're screaming your lungs out and banging that thing with your friends. LOL.

Anyway, TRICIA is so damn lucky. She got to go for the celebration of the ending ceremony. Which meant she could see lots of ....." wooo..so many hotties and cuties here" so obvious she wants to make me jealous right.

and and, she told me that the cutie was waving to her class. but ya know what, e5 and e1 sitting together. so i dont care. he was waving to me too. Lol though only the e5 girls waved back frantically.

during that day, actually, i didn't really see his face. too far. but ppl kept saying shuai! shuai!. so i looked at the side view back view and went shuai! shuai!. Lol

But anyway its time for me to study.

2010-08-21T22:15:00.002+08:00

Migraine...every week. especially on days when i have to mug like crazy.

Can't help it if i get lazy. Yes, partially cos of that. I don't feel stressed, my body does it. So to the school and teachers, you can't blame me entirely.

imagine life in JC, triple the stress, and more headaches. Ok, decided no jc life for me.

Medical condition. Good and valid reason to not venture into jc life.

2010-08-20T22:01:00.002+08:00

Caught step up 3D today with natalie.

If you are looking for an interesting plot, knowwww what? don't bother.

Dancing, Shoes, Effects, costumes, and of course HAWT GUYS, totally YES!

I DON'T MIND SPENDING ANOTHER 14BUX AGAIN.

hahahaha! OHHHH MAN Although they're hot, i still shivered like mad in the theatre.

I heard a bunch of girls laughing loudly and speaking about rick malambri(Luke)...
sth like this
"He's so shuai hahaha hehehe" and continues giggling.

Lmao. then nat told me "i keep seeing his six pack" LMAOROFL. i was admiring the overall. ehehe. and of course daniel(Kid darkness) was damn shuai especially at the beginning also.

OMGGGG. NOSEBLEED LIAO. JKJK.

2010-08-19T17:19:00.004+08:00

Hmm...been offline these days. Success!

Dissatisfied with my CL O's results so I'm retaking.
Nowadays the perpetual homework is kind of killing me.

Andddd, someone who I consider a friend indirectly insulted cheryl. Who are you to judge someone else's competency srsly!
Right, she may suck at chinese but that doesn't mean she can't obtain a fantastic score. And it's not like everyone is good at everything.
Hard work pays as well!
You say language is easy, Chinese papers are a piece a cake to you. But I don't see you even passing your English.
It's not me being unreasonable. She's so darn insistent that Cheryl cmi. You want to show off how good your grades are, fine. Don't insult anyone. (she indirectly insulted me too because I got the same grade as Cheryl.
Don't talk shit when you can't even pass your english. I so so wanted to be blunt and just shoot her just now.

2010-08-13T16:21:00.003+08:00

oh, what to say what to say!

I wasn't really nervous for my oral exam honestly speaking, surprisingly...not the least nervous.

It's just that I didn't quite unleash my potentials, it's as though there's a barrier in my mind.

But, oh well, the teachers seemed to be nice and jovial. Because they laughed when i told them hweejun's most epic moment...

I kept giving examples that i sort of didn't answer their qns. But it's OVER.

Bye, cyber world i'll see you in 3 mths.

2010-08-08T20:56:00.007+08:00

Just got my MJ bag today. loveeee it, although it's a little pricey!

Very attention grabbing hahaha. :O

So many things i wanna get, like from Nastygal and Charlotte Russe. CR having lots of promotions now!!!

But i keep telling myself "no!no!no!" because i won't have the time to buy, collect, go to atm, wear because of school commitments. most imptly, no $.

So

imma struggling...with the monstrous me who wants to buy. Anyhowz, i have only 10bux. wait i owe $. so i'm actually left with negative amt in my purse.

Oh and i'm dying to try DIY some accessories and clothes. if only i had the time, skills and resources. I need to clear my wardrobe, i could srsly do some DIY-ing?

Or

should i save up to buy like a jeffrey campbell boots which is probably gonna cost me like 200++. I know this amount is insane. But consider it as an investment, because boots is a staple for winter. Of course, I'm just gonna buy a simple, non trend following one. RIGHT?

Dang....

Happy National day!!!!!

2010-08-06T16:24:00.003+08:00

Lol. I just watched christian dior's 2009-2011 collection on tv. So i was wondering...do i really want to design? I'm kind of intrigued and amazed by fashion sometimes, especially those haute couture shows.

But it boils down to one thing, i can't draw. (maybe a little, but not fantastic.)

So... I went online to check Lasalle to see the req., prospects etcetc.

"Are waffles really better than pancakes?"
10 pieces of different kind of artwork needs to be presented.
eg. drawings, sketches, 2D work (e.g. painting, printmaking, digital imaging) or 3D work (e.g. sculpture, ceramics).

what! what? wtf does the bottom last sentence means?

So sad righttttt...maybe when i have $, i'll take up some short courses they offer for fun...

I should just stick to the norm.

P/S i posted a picture of a dress from the runway a few mths back. it's a freaking lingerie from Dior's S/S Lingerie collection. It looks more like a dress. ahahaha.

2010-08-05T12:14:00.003+08:00

PRELIMS are finally over. Not that i did fantastically well for all the papers.

gottttaaaa buck up.

Hey, i was pissed just now and i was about to vent my anger here. but it seems like i'm not already. Pissed because i was treated like glass.

Fine...for the first time i ACCEPT that we have different views, but you guys don't have to get so agitated right? It's not like i'm blasting that as a bad idea. Fine, if you all talk amongst yourselves.
Then the second time was the last straw. You don't look into my eyes and turn back and continue blabbering as if i didn't ask anything. THAT'S RUDE. 3 times ok!

So...im gonna bathe now and meet nat for INCEPTION. whooo! :)

I have no idea why i like to vent my frustrations here. But cool, at least i don't keep the anger boiling in me and screw my day up!

2010-08-03T19:12:00.002+08:00

fml.

tokio hotel ytd was rather fun, except for the time-wasting part and nooooo, they didn't sing! merely interviewed the twins. And kui jien is cute lor! (Y) i only thought so when he tried to do funny things in front of the camera. Srsly!

I didn't manage to study biology! I screwed it up badly because i actually slept and stoned for 3/4 of the time allocated for the paper. I was literally in my lalaland because i totally couldn't think at all, too exhausted. i had to even wash my face in the toilet. First time i went to the toilet during exam and first time i really stoned for such a long time.

Lol...hmmm...am gonna buy some stuff online later. that is...when i have the $.