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Thursday, January 19, 2012, 8:35 PM
School's feeling more and more like a battlefield...to me. i guess its inevitable, but I thought we're comrades? Now what...wait, you don't trust me?
I thought we're different. Wouldn't have mattered if it were someone else. I would have not have done what you did if i were in your place. Don't have to stutter and come up with excuses. You could have told me straight, i'd respect that. As much as i like things to be better than they already are, it's just getting worse. There's always this wall people put up around them so i have to do the same, admittedly. Nobody wants to get hurt. Sometimes, i swear i would love to be alone. For there's no vying for the coveted title or battles that would leave everyone scarred.
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Sunday, January 8, 2012, 1:21 AM
 The dress....stunning.
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Thursday, January 5, 2012, 3:57 AM
I was just wondering if i should take up piano lessons. Not anytime too soon i guess since i'm not financially stable. It'll just be a burden to my parents.
It's like i think i wanna learn. Yeah, i like learning new stuff. Remember when i was 13, we (yy & me) used to sit at the piano near the staircase during recess and even after school to play. Then just 2 weeks ago, i went to my aunt's house, happened to play the piano and got my lil' cousin to teach me 2 songs. Kind of cool. My aunt asked me if i wanted learn no? I said no, just for fun. But now i kind of want to? Know the chinese phrase 喜新厌旧? Sort of describes me. But to put it nicely, i just wanna try out new things and see how it goes! been so caught up with my projects lately, hate it. Gotta blame myself for procrastinating. Spent the holidays watching drama series, one after another. can't stop. 6 series...i estimate 65 episodes in total? Last semester i told myself, im gonna work harder this time, gonna spend my holidays studying. IT ALWAYS DOESNT HAPPEN. have been like this for my entire life. I didn't even bother to do my assignments, let alone study i hate myself for this srsly. i'm pretty much sure alot of people out there have the same problem as me. I AM A MESS. SERIOUSLY. |
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Friday, December 30, 2011, 7:48 PM
I'm a wreck man i swear. My emotions are screwed.
Most of the time when i cry i'm either frustrated or angry...hardly sad. And i can't control them as much as i wish to. wtf. |
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Saturday, December 17, 2011, 11:29 PM
Damn, i feel so demoralised?
You know, when you're not good anything. Ok I'm not boasting or what(it's the PAST, not PRESENT). I remember how I used to be better academically. But I lost it since I was 15...wait, maybe 12. And then you see those people (who used to do worse than you)do better currently. So demoralising. what is this?! Go to a junior college, and everything else. *Le sighs* Well, I'm happy though I went to polytechnic. Nope, i don't regret it. Maybe I could've done better? I just hope this path is the right one for me. There's so many things I wanna learn. Piano, Muaythai, guitar, jazz just to name a few. (Makes me feel smarter) ahahaha. in the future... Will probably act in a film that a friend roped me in. All along, I've never actually acted(played a major role) in my school's drama. Would be a good experience and venture.I'll try my best if I do it. Ballet performance in less than a month. Barely a month's practice. Show some mercy please, i'm still an amateur.Extra practices everyday for a week. Gotta be more devoted else I will lag behind those exceptionally good ones. Lastly, my studies. I need to pull my socks up. Screwed up alot of tests. Two words: Utter disappointment. |
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Sunday, December 11, 2011, 12:20 AM
Is it worth it...to trade for a lifetime of happiness? yeah i probably will be though i'm scared as heck. so that's that.
Im pain-tolerant. lolol beautician "pain or not? pain tell me" me "nope not at all" X5times? It hurts, but i can really tolerate it for the sake of having a blackhead free nose. *A little tears start welling* Anywayyyyyy, this is random but i can't help to think that i'm weird. 60% of the products in the toilet are mine. And i'm not a staunch supporter of any brand i guess. I use 5 shampoos of different brands, 4 hair masks, and tons of leave on crap(which i cannot be bothered to use nowadays) concurrently. Oh just bought Goldwell treatment. So far so good. Affordable and i guess its comparable to Kerastase which is much more expensive? I'm thinking of trying out different brands before i decide which one i want to stick to. I haven't done my Xmas/CNY shopping yet. The crowds and SCHOOL. Speaking of school, im totally worn out. Madness. All the more stressful you are when you have to maintain your grades and since my parents spend so much on me.....i can't let them down. On a happier note, I passed my Ballet G6 foundation. whooohoo. Let's hope for a commended for grade6 during March2012. Need to hone my skills asap so that I can get more certs. This post is random and totally crap........I think i should just lock the blog since no one is reading except kobemoo. Its so boooorrriinnng.
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Tuesday, December 6, 2011, 11:00 AM
  first pair of branded shoes i wanna get: Christian Louboutin pumps. classic.
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Monday, November 21, 2011, 11:25 PM
i'm actually afraid of failures. just saying.
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, 10:51 PM
Just received the best news ever. That there was no misdiagnosis and Iwas supposed to do braces 5 fucking years ago(ok not sure if thats good news). Maybe my mum was aware but it slipped her mind/couldn't be bothered. Well, i think it's kind of her fault, BUT she is my mum still.
At least im relieved that i know the truth. And my psea is approved. Yeap ready to consult for braces. So fucking excited. It really sucks when you're all excited and then someone had to be a spoiler and tell you, there's a possibility that you can't fix your teeth/jaw. ok 2 close ppl told me that. SERIOUSLY. don't come telling me things when you have no idea what the problem is. you're not a dentist, you dont know whats with my teeth, you obviously can't do your research w/o knowing whats wrong. Maybe you meant well, but seriously? I wouldn't be so confident if not for the fact that i did my research. I know, i know right, the higher your expectation, the higher your disappointment. I have yet to consult a orthodontist(the one at compass point doesnt count, can just !@@#$@%^%$&). If the first orthodontist im gonna consult tells me that it can't helped, i'll know, i'll expect less. (Not that i'll give up) then she's like you sure you wanna do it? Please lah, i've been talking about this years ago. Isn't it obvious? haven't i considered enough?and she's like half hearted about the whole thing. what if it doesn't work? well, at least i tried. i don't expect 100%, just better. At whatever the cost. Why so discouraging? really freaks me out. Lol, and i wonder why some people do braces to make their jaws smaller. really....? is it necessary?
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Sunday, November 20, 2011, 10:24 PM
Well, I've been a really last minute person lately. And that almost screwed my marketing project up.
I'm supposed to be doing my work. Yes I haven't done a single tutorial over the weekends. The weather is killing me, literally - Sleeping, sleeping and sleeping and watching funshion. Damn, I'm such a stay-at-home person. 8D Took my dance exam just a few days back. No matter what the outcome may be, I'm pretty pleased that I've done good...enough. Really hate that I have no shopping funds. Rotating clothes to wear and all over again. It's boring. it sucks even more when you go online window shopping/read fashionblogs. Still trying to save up for braces. And apparently, i don't think i'll get enough funds till next year, which beats my purpose of saving up. At my lowest point, where money is concerned. |
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